Ever wish life was like Donkey Kong? See a flaming barrel, jump over it. Eat a banana to cure all health problems and when you need a friend, just call up Diddy Kong, he's always there right where you need him.
Instead, we don't get to see the flaming barrel until it's already set you o fire and taking you with it. Diddy doesn't always know when he's needed and that banana? Well, I could give you some imagery that's not at all pleasant when a banana is concerned.
I've tried to start this blog so many times it's not even funny. One problem is, I'm a private person by nature. Sure, I'll socialize and say just enough to give you a fair idea of who I am and what my problems are but reality is, I;m not eger for the world to know me. I'm not that interesting and I'm very mundane and so on and so forth. Sometimes, I think I'm bi polar, up on moment, down the next. And other days I think I'm depressed. Maybe I'm veering towards Scizo (Which is my greatest nightmare BTW) but again, the symptoms don't match up. Some night, I can't sleep due to my over active mind, and some days I can't wake up at a decent hour. I can't focus on anything but basic functions of life and even then I'm struggling to preform such tasks as eating and providing for family.
I have computer skills, Military life, I can sew, craft, read for hours on end, cook forever, play video games....but none of that gives me any stress relief nor pleasure like it used to. Maybe I'm just being a wuss about it all but the fact of the matter (and the point of all this) Is that something is wrong. But I don't know what it is. Feels like I'm being sabotaged every times I make headway and that people are going out of their way to sabotage my life to make themselves feel better. I do something that makes life a little easier to manage and wham, they disrupt my groove like a bull in the china shop.
Oh well. Better get some type to care for Sick Hubby and Little One.
